Landslide
Becoming Strong Again
Looking back on my life, I've been through so much. Choices I've made. Situations I put myself in. But also things that happened to me that I didn't choose. Things that changed me as a person and made me who I am today.
Some of that was real pain, times where I didn't know how I'd keep going. I'm not going to pretend that's an easy thing to say, but it's true, and I think a lot of people carry something like that even if they never say it out loud. What I've found on the other side of it is this, I'm grateful to still be here! Life is short, shorter than we like to think about, and the hard times taught me that more than anything good ever did.
That's where the strength came from. Not from pushing through something in the moment, but from getting back up after everything had already fallen apart. Loss. Grief. Burnout. Changes I didn't ask for, and some I did ask for but didn't understand until I was already living through them. I try my hardest every day to not take things for granted anymore. I don't think I'd be who I am now without any of it, even the parts I wish I could go back and undo.
This month's Full Spectrum Yarn Club is inspired by Fleetwood Mac's Landslide. To me, this song is about realizing the changes in our lives that end up making us stronger people. It's not about the moment things fall apart. It's about looking back later and seeing what you built out of it and the people in our lives that may have helped us through.
That idea has actually followed us all year. Figuring out how to say what we actually mean. How to connect with people instead of just going through the motions. How to talk honestly about what's weighing on us instead of pretending we're fine. How to let joy back into our lives after a long period of hard times. October is next part of that story! Not just noticing you've changed, but actually living like the person you've become.
We're moving through the full color wheel this year, and last month was red-orange. This month's color palette is filled with saturated reds. Candy apple red, deep scarlet, moody cadmium, with a little bit of that red-orange still hanging around from last month to make this years fade continue.
Music says a lot of the things I don't say out loud. This song is one of those for me, and it's part of why this month is about embracing who we've become. Not in avoiding the landslide, but in learning how to stand in the landscape after it.
Ross ❤️
